Sometimes when we have big heavy feelings people will use the concept of ‘letting go’ as in : you just need to let it go. But we all know that there are times when that feels (and may actually be) impossible. Sometimes we feel like we need those big emotions for some reason, or we are attached to them, or they are there because they honor someone we have loved. Mourning, for example, can certainly be a big heavy emotion that we cannot and should not try to just ‘let go’ of.
Lately I’ve been grappling with some big emotions myself. I spent some time with a chevron amethyst connecting with compassionate thinking about how to find a breath when my chest feels overwhelmed by the pressure of the emotion. It came to me that trying to let go isn’t an important goal. I tried instead to loosen my hold on those emotions just enough that air and the light of the universe could find space in my body. Just to loosen my grip enough that I could take a big deep breath of the universal energy and connect to my divine purpose. I may never let go of this emotion - it may always be part of my life. But it doesn’t need to keep me from breathing, being present, and being true to who I want to be on this earth.
“Breathe. You're going to be okay. Breathe and remember that you’ve been in this place before. You’ve been this uncomfortable and anxious and scared, and you've survived. Breathe and know that you can survive this too. These feelings can’t break you. They're painful and debilitating, but you can sit with them and eventually, they will pass. Maybe not immediately, but sometime soon, they are going to fade and when they do, you'll look back at this moment and laugh for having doubted your resilience. I know it feels unbearable right now, but keep breathing, again and again. This will pass. I promise it will pass.”
Daniell Koepke
